8/02/2008 07:42:00 AM

work started... didnt do much on 1st day... basically all the admin stuff... asked arnd the staff abt the company apparently 1 engineer gave me a good explanation of this company... he said "all kinds of jobs are shitty... no matter where u go... u still hafta earna living.. but over here, we haf good bosses n good colleagues.. isnt it better than 1 where everything is shit?" dat kinda gave me a feeling 'okie, wat he said made sense'... so i suppose i've land myself a good job... haha... tentatively i'll be going to shanghai in nov... but dats in nov... n my colleagues say never ever confirm ur trip until u realli get ur air tickets... haha... so i guess i wun hope dat much...

juz came home from movie n dinner wif phil... haha... we went on a date... haha.. opps... the others r not suppose to know dat he;s backed... haha so secretive... anyway the show was nice... juz didnt expect it to be so long.. tot it will be short since there's 2nd part... nice show.. after movie was dinner.. n of coz we chatted for very long... its nice chatting wif a fren who disappeared for so long... haha... i mean couldnt blame him... he's a foreigner now... whahaha...

so i hope all's well for the time being... my colleagues r a great bunch of pple... this guy hafta make a big roung of conversation b4 he finally ask if i'm attached... super funny... n the thing is they oredi noe i;m attached coz last wk during the event i oredi told my mentor dat i was... n she had oredi told them... its juz funny... i juz kept laughing... n not forgetting i haf a great boss... who treated us to a hotel buffet lunch... hee.... yupz i juz hope my life's gonna be good there... n my car-dream is coming true soon i hope!!!!! hee

7/29/2008 11:01:00 PM

yea.. daddy is back home now... at least i dun hafta worry so much... n its not so tiring for me to shuttle between home n hospital... most impt thing is he's much better now... hee...

been looking at everybody's convo photos lately... juz make me miss sch so much... haha... miss the times where we will sit in lectures n comment on lecturers' english... tok crap during lect.. gossiping during lect... n pple complaining we tok too loud during lect... haha... i kinda miss those life now... seems like it juz happened yesterday n yet it will never happen again... scholling is like the best part of life.. but it has been the most stressful times... however stressful it is... the fun part realli covers everything... i wish i can continue my studies.. but i think it is not a practical thing to do now in my current state... yeap... i love studies but i need $... haha

i realised dat no matter wat i've told pple abt how bad he is... i juz cant free myself from him... haha... telling pple how bad he is is juz to stop myself from sinking deeper... however, i noe there is no way i can climb out of this... its juz like quicksand.. the more u struggle, the deeper u fall... n the onli way out is when dat special some1 comes n pull u out of it... but i dun think there's ever gonna be dat special some1... haha... i;ve been told by many many pple dat i'm stupid... coz i can always find some1 better... yet i'm clinging on so tightly... but dats juz how it is... the more pple think i cannot make it... the more i wanna show them i can make it... hahaha... stubborn me...

anyway i juz miss my bb so much... juz hope dat he does miss me as much... or maybe he doesnt miss me at all.... =(

7/28/2008 12:47:00 AM

last few days of freedom at home... work starting soon... i tot i could rest well at home or maybe go out n fully enjoy myself... apparently i cant... coz dad is in hospital... hopefully he is okie...

i tot dat i wun miss my bb while he's gone.. but i cant help it dat i miss him so dearly.... looks like i'm falling all over again into this trap.... juz cant pull myself out of it no matetr how hard i try.... i juz hope dat things wun turn the way it used to be... or at least dun let me fall too deep in... in case anything happens, i can be pulled out easily.... i miss my bb... hope he is doing fine.... 18 more days....

gotta prepare for my dad's stuff... i juz wish dat my family r all safe n fine... god bless them.... i love my family....